Monday, January 16, 2012

Searching for a focus

One of my struggles with starting this blog is finding a focus about which to write. Beginning this process, I know I am using it more as a journal. I doubt many will want to read my daily diary of every day life. I have too many ideas. This is a common problem of many fledgling writers. Do I want it to be completely personal? Do I want to write about my struggle to lose weight? Do I want to journal about my career and the challenges faced every day in California schools? I kind of want to talk about all of it. Meld it all together. Make this is exercise in writing more than a statement to the world. At least for now...

As I mentioned, my weight has been an issue my whole life. I was a slightly chubby child and teenager. Then as I have aged, pounds seem to creep on. Creep is a good word, because it really is insidious. Last year, I decided to lose weight. I set my goal at losing 35 pounds. I didn't give myself a deadline to accomplish this by, just as long as it took until the 35 pounds was gone. Well, now it is 13 months later, and I am essentially at the same place I was when I started. I was down 14 pounds last spring. Then vacations, new job, holidays.... I just dropped my vigilance. *heavy sigh*

Well, now it's a new day, a new year, and a new determination to work on those 35 pounds again. This is where the blog comes in for me. I have willpower most of the day. Especially on work days, it's not too hard to stick with my meal plan. But on weekends and evenings, when I am home and comfy and less busy, I have a much harder time fighting my cravings. So, I need a hobby. Something to take my time instead of baking brownies. Maybe now, I will sit home in the evenings, sip tea and write. It's a thought.

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